Memoirs of Dream Street

Assalam...Hey Guys, well it's a been rough week for me because lots of problem and works still uncovered...i'm still drawing blank just because i can't do this....it's too heavy...But you never know your true strength if you haven't try...right?

then, i've been too many crushes....TOO MANY...i really want to be loved by someone that i can tells a secret to, hangout,watch a movie, tells a story about our lives and problem and giving advice but i never tasted that...other than my own family... but having too many crushes is a problem,ya know? because i'm supposed to be wait and hold on the one i was waiting for...

College can kill you if you not prepare trust me...i've been there it took you money,life and gives you stress but....if you good enough you can take em...all you need is Determination,trust and Finally....BE PATIENT...DON'T BE AN IDIOT who makes a stupid jokes....

It's really worth it?

I ALWAYS ASK MYSELF ABOUT FRIENDSHIP AND THE REALITY….I KNOW I CAN’T BE A GOOD FRIEND BUT I CAN’T SAY THAT I’M YOUR FRIEND BECAUSE SOMETIME I FEEL THAT WHEN I SEE PEOPLE THAT JOIN THEIR OWN KIND IT’S SAD…BECAUSE DIDN’T THEY LEARNED ANYTHING FROM ORIENTATION THAT WE SUFFER?? BROKEN BODIES, WOUND, FULLS OF SCARS, HUMILATION…IS IT WORTH IT? HONESTLY I DON’T KNOW BECAUSE I CAN’T SEE ANYHTING NOW…I’M FLYING BLIND…I DON’T KNOW THEY WANT TO BE FRIENDS WITH ME…OR I AM TO BLIND TO SEE THIS FRIENDSHIP? I DON’T KNOW MY STRENGTH OR MY ABILITY IS USEFUL AT THIS COLLEGE THE REASON WAS FIRST TIME I CAME TO THIS CLASS, AUTOMATICALLY I’VE JUST BECAME LONER, CLASS JOKER,DULL, WHY CAN’T WE BE HAPPY????? I WANT TO STUDY, TO LEARN, TO MAKE FRIENDS, TO BECOME A GOOD FRIEND, AND NOW EVERYBODY WANT TO BE “BAD BOY” SO THEY CAN CLOSE TO GIRLS…  QUITE FRANKLY, I CAN’T CHANGE MYSELF INTO A BAD BOY THAT WOULD BE BREAKING MY PROMISE TO MY FAMILY AND MYSELF… SO THAT’S WHY THEY SAY NICE GUYS FINISH LAST… AND I’M GOING TO PROVE THEM WRONG…ONCE AND FOR ALL...I DON’T WANT BE ANYTHING OTHER THAN ME….