Ghost Of The Posts

Friday, 6 December 2013

away and done for...

i feel lost....cold nights and i always thought that my love will leave me...but...i was the one who leave her...it was my fault and i was so selfish and too blind to see this...i'm sorry...that i loved you...

How do you decide who to marry written by kids!!

http://dailynewsdig.com/how-do-you-decide-who-to-marry-written-by-kids/

assalam,hey guys it's been a while when i updating my blog and a lot of thing changes and happen right in front of my eyes...so...i don't suppose to tell the whole story...so i'm going to tell a bit...

-about my crush....yup...i lost her...i failed to say that magical word....

-life as a college kid...pretty good but i hate one of my roommates because of him...i almost turned into a wrong guy....

-family....still in great shape...

-overall....i still can't forget what just happen...it's way to fast than i thought it would...and...stay postive...

Tuesday, 2 July 2013

Broken Hearted + emotional break down=Aftermath in my mind

12.30 am…..
What is Determination???

We all know that determination is something we do for it…no matter how bad we want it….

But the real determination reason is forced yourself to push the limit and no matter how hard it would be to ignore the pain that we suffer but for some people….they don’t care, not even once….why?
because they have a mind that conquers it’s all…if you want it…go get it…don’t stop.

I believe the touch of magic… why? Because that moment when you try to do something hard…Actually…it’s very easy…but why some people thinks it’s very hard before they even do the thing? They should do first then analyze the strategy…don’t jump into the conclusion…because you going to need everything…I mean everything…

After farah hani broke my heart, I was sad and devastated because I was confident that she will never see me again…now, I met a girl her name is (Jia), she has everything that I want, she was my teammate in my team “Forteen”(group 14) but just the previous problem has return :The fear of being rejected… that was my weakness but I have to overcome and patient…I can’t just tell her that I like her…there is no way she will said “I like you too”…to me…that pain that I felt for years, I forced them write one by one…this pain I forced write them down…one by one…I give my everything, my hope, my love for you…but it  just another moment that we cherish together…yes, they said all guys are the same…it’s true but you can’t be weak because of guys…NO!... I want a girl can stand and fight, loveable, same interest…you probably hate me or stay away from me because you are not felling comfortable, it’s okay I want you to be comfortable don’t feel awkward and scare…I very sincere to you….

Diary before to KPTM Ipoh...


Assalam,2.33 pagi,sabtu,depan tv…seorang…aku rasa sejuk…bukan pasal kipas…tapi pasal emosi aku,aku kecewa sebab aku tak tahu apa yang aku nak untuk masa depan aku,walaupun memang target nak jadi atlet tapi macam mana nak ke sana/destinasi,aku tak tahu…serius…aku bersyukur ada abang,kakak,mak,abah,ayah dan kawan-kawan….tapi aku tak diberi peluang untuk berfikir sebab diorang buat pelan untuk aku…just one tiny problem,aku tak suka push over yang dahsyat sampai aku tak boleh handle…aku takut terlalu banyak perkara(worst thing could happen)…but aku kena terima…maybe ada Hikmah disebalikNya..aku tak tahu…apa yang aku tahu…is FOLLOW MY CHILDHOOD DREAM…tu yang aku nak…apa yang kita selalu buat,impian masa zaman kanak-kanak…maybe this my chance to see and get Farah Hani(My New Crush) closer…

Why I like about Farah Hani?
Cute,Very Honest,Smart,Religious,Classy,Respect.Cheerful.But she said I’m not the guy that she want…i know that feeling more than I can count,as usual I should change when I realize or a second  chances to live and a redemption… I want chase my childhood dream but it’s going to a loooooooonnnnnng road….at first I was ready to drop a bomb,and knock em out….when my brother and my sister ask me if I’m really sure and they asked same question many times until it makes me unsure….i hates those feeling…that’s why I’m writing this…I have no idea…REALLY….Assalam and goodnight…-Xpand Your  Imagination….
P/S:Dear,Farah Hani Will you be my last love for my life? Please?

Thursday, 6 June 2013

Dear,My Cousin...

http://ainaaffiqah960520.blogspot.com/2013/05/my-teenager-life-are-grown-me-up.html

As'salam,hey guys...i just became a college kid...a Freshman....but that's not why i'm here...
I'm here because...you see that link? that's my cousin blog,she is turned into someone i don't recognized her anymore with her siblings...here the story...:She is sad because she been thorough so much...i feel sorry for her,but she literally blamed my brother and everyone because she said she's jealous of her friends,cousin or maybe someone...

But i think she misunderstood the situation because you can't point fingers and blaming yourself and being in negative mind state...if she think that i don't understand feeling and situation...Guess What? I've been dealing with these Kind of problem since 2005...i always look back,where i came from never forget that...if nobody want to pick you up...Then By All Mean GET UP...ON YOUR FEET...you don't need anyone to hope or to blame...your problem your choice...find a to solve this Allah S.W.T will help His slave to problem...

Be Postive,if you can't...try,is all you have to do...don't jump into conclusion...i talk to you like this because  i know that situation,i get it...but you should't do it that because according to result for examination you are smarter than me,genius than me...so you should be mature not crying on the bedroom every night...you should forgive them and go back with them..just the old days...no negative emotion...just straight relax...ok?? i love you as a cousin...if you really think that i  hate you...you are wrong...i'll be there...

P/S:promise me...don't give up...

Saturday, 18 May 2013

Change...

Assalam...sorry for not write this blog for a while because i'm on studies for form 6 at jalan reko...because i don't make it to UPU(Unit Pengurusan Universiti) but that okay...Nowdays,I realized there's a lot of changes happen in front of my eyes such as:I'm a Running Man addicted,further studies,weight,friends gone changes too not just me...but no my feelings...it's still the same...it's still very hard to forget her...but what i do...i'm not keanu reeves to love or Aaron Aziz to fight her but i got friendzoned...HARD.... and that's why i've learned changes always even though you did't realize in front you...

LEESSANG-GIRL WHO CAN'T LEAVE,BOY WHO CAN'T BREAK....

Saturday, 2 March 2013

My Favorite Song and movie...Phantom Of the Opera

As'salam....hey guys...just recently i watched and read "The Phantom Of The Opera"....is about Musical,betray,love,honest,willing and Fate....it was awesome....why? Because it's not contain with stupid remix like Harlem Shake,Gangnam,Skrillex,or even stupid Jersey Shore...this movie has a deep meaning and very heart beat moment like when she(Christine) Removed "The Phantom" Mask's (Erik)....purpose to see why Erik have a terrible face...It's Too Terrible even his mom don't want him and give him a mask since he was 2... And The Song....EPIC!! here's the Lyric...

Christine:
In sleep he sang to me

in dreams he came...
that voice which calls to me
and speaks my name

And do I dream again?
For now I find
the Phantom of the Opera is there-
inside my mind... 

Erik:
Sing once again with me

our strange duet...
My power over you
grows stronger yet... 

And though you turn from me,
to glance behind,
the Phantom of the Opera is there-
inside your mind... 

Christine:

Those who have seen your face
draw back in fear...
I am the mask you wear... 

Erik:

It's me they hear... 

Both:

Your/my spirit and my/your voice,
in one combined:
the Phantom of the Opera is there-
inside your/my mind... 

He's there, the Phantom of the Opera...
Beware the Phantom of the Opera... 

Both:

In all your fantasies,
you always knew
that man and mystery... 

Christine:

...were both in you... 

Both:

And in this labyrinth,
where night is blind,
the Phantom of the Opera is there/here-
inside your/my mind... 

Erik:


Sing, Sing my Angel of music, sing, Sing For Me!


Just Perfect....

Friday, 11 January 2013

feeling that i've just can take it anymore....

As'salam...tonight i want to tell my feeling And Secrets...TRULY!....

1)I'm in Love with A girl....why? because i just knew it...that she's the one for me,and i'm try to get her but at the same time i don't scared her away...i wish she could be my wife someday...i love her so much with all my heart out...but i'm just afraid to tell  her what i really feel...because i don't want to lose her...

2)I'm Not Afraid of anything except Allah S.W.T...why? if i afraid of something or person that means i'm just put same level to Allah S.W.T.... Strong,Tough,Extreme...but i don't like been scolded...

3)I Love My Family With All My Heart....Why? because i feel thankful to Allah for Put into this family that it's fit for me and my family although i have been challenge for everything,my family watch our backs for everything...ALHAMDULILLAH...

4)I Love My Friends...why? I learn that we all have a different personality nobody is the same nor perfect but we can live in harmony and no prejudice issue with the different people...and the bonus is you will feel the sense of magical moment that will realize when with them...like Malique said"Laughed Together,Cried Together,I swear we will Died Together"...

5)All You Need Is Love...why? Love Always the answers for everything...don't believe me?? look around you...

6)Be Thankful to your enemy...why? Because it's just to show you that you are way better than your enemy...one more thing...only your enemy know how good you are and your capable...

Wednesday, 9 January 2013

Motivation from WWE Superstars....

Cm Punk-“I don’t care how many movies you film every year. I know how hard that schedule probably is but every time you come back, whenever you decide to grace us with your presence, I’m gonna kick your ass. Because this isn’t Candyland.

 I’m like nobody you’ve ever faced before. You can make fun of the color of my t-shirt and you can talk about pie and you can sing songs and you can rhyme and you can do your entire lame ass stick. 

I just want you to know that come Royal Rumble, and you have about 3 weeks to realize this, I’m gonna kick your ass cos I’m the best in the world. I’m the best thing going today, I’m the best guy you’ve ever stepped foot in the ring with and you need to understand. 

Congratulations, Rock, you’ve just graduated from the kiddy table but you just bit off more than you can chew. You’re playing little league with your little insults, and your rhymes and your “millions and millions” and your finally’s and I’m in the big leagues and I’m swinging through the fence.

You need to understand that your little jabs and your insults is all kiddy games. You can’t leave a mark on the champ’s face. Come Royal Rumble, understand when you step in the ring, your arms are just too short to box with God.”....>>>>>>>>>

Jeff Hardy-
Today I woke up with a hurting heart, but it wasn't from medical problems. It was from a forgotten love of my past that painfully reentered my dreams. 
During these dreams, I felt as if I were reborn. I felt the feeling of love again without a worry in the world. It was she who made me happy, it was she who opened my heart and committed murder to all my pain. However, this murder wasn't total death. The pain came back and it came back to stay. 

Now it's infected and peroxide doesn't even foam..........so maybe I'm not normal? I'll probably never see her again in this life unless she continues to peacefully visit my dreams. 

If she does, maybe one day I can stay, stay with her in another world, stay with her in another time, stay with her by not waking up..........at least my heart will never hurt again.>>>>>>>

John Cena-
"Trust me, ... I know where my heart is and my heart's right here. I'm going to keep doing everything because I love to do it, but I will never sacrifice my time between the ropes. That's no shot to anybody. Everybody's got different career paths. This is mine.>>>>>>>

Randy Orton-My Accomplishments are endless>>>>>>

John Morrison-
Give a man a fish and you feed him for a day. Teach a man to fish and you feed him for a lifetime.>>>>>

That's Why I love WWE....wwe is just not a wrestling is about entertaining....and motivate to win and sportsmanship...
                   

Tuesday, 8 January 2013

The Promise...

As'salam everyone...tonight i want to tell you a story is about Truth And Promise...i hope we can learn from this story...

Telling the truth is a very good habit. If you always speak the truth, you can save yourself from a lot of trouble! Here is a story of a man who did a lot of bad things, but his promise to tell the truth saved him.

Once a man came to the prophet Muhammad (SAW) and said, "Oh prophet of Allah, I have many bad habits. Which one of them should I give up first?" The prophet said, "Give up telling lies first and always speak the truth." The man promised to do so and went home.

At night the man was about to go out to steal. Before setting out, he thought for a moment about the promise he made with the prophet. "If tomorrow the prophet asks me where have I been, what shall I say? Shall I say that I went out stealing? No, I cannot say that. But nor can I lie. If I tell the truth, everyone will start hating me and call me a thief. I would be punished for stealing."

So the man decided not to steal that night, and gave up this bad habit.

Next day, he felt like drinking wine, when he was about to do so, he said to himself, "What shall I say to the prophet if he asks me what did I do during the day? I cannot tell a lie, and if I speak the truth people will hate me, because a Muslim is not allowed to drink wine." And so he gave up the idea of drinking wine.

In this way, whenever the man thought of doing something bad, he remembered his promise to tell the truth at all times. One by one, he gave up all his bad habits and became a good Muslim and a very good person.

If you always speak the truth, you can be a good person, a good Muslim whom Allah likes and favors. If Allah - our Creator - is pleased with us, He will reward us with HEAVEN, which is a place of happiness and joy.

MAKE A PROMISE TO YOURSELF: I SHALL ALWAYS SPEAK THE TRUTH!!!.....-XPAND YOUR IMAGINATION...

Monday, 7 January 2013

heavy and cold sensational feeling...


As'salam....tonight i feel the heavy feeling that make my heart sweats to tears...because i miss my classmates that make me grow as a person today...i know is a heartbeat to meet them again...but i will that my chances all i have...just a second,minute,hours or even days...Jeff Hardy once said in his poem "Here I am again...tired from not sleeping...Sad from not loving. I feel miserable again...here on this plane...Here on this earth. I've done it again...I stayed out all night. I feel it again...I dred this flight. Why? Because I'm sick...Sick of being owned... I write because I'm sick...Sick of being known. If I was normal...Would she like me the same? If I was just a stock boy...Would she still enjoy my name? I'd like to think she does and would...I believe in her and believe in me she should. I'm gonna lean my head against this window...Close my eyes and go to sleep. I'll wake up in the next town...With thoughts beyond deep. The days will go by as I will just act. As the days go by I can only look back...At the good times...the fun. At the bad times...the fun. I wonder if she misses me as much as I miss her...I wonder if she waits to see me...I wonder if she waits? I'd like to think she did and would...I believe in her and believe in me she should. My hear is so curious...My mind is so blank...Without you I'm lost... I am an empty tank...."....that's exactly how i feel......good night my friends..

Saturday, 5 January 2013

Strength Or Strong?

As'salam ,everybody...i'm going to tell you about the difference between strength and strong....we all know the difference but...do we realize what inside of us?? i know that feel too but should you do something about it??? yes you will...find it and you will get your way there...aim high,reach them....


We still think how we going to find out...what is strength....strength is physically strong but they can't help you with your inner problem...hands up and Pray for ALLAH S.W.T....don't be an arrogant as Strength...be Thankful for Strong that you needed so long...think carefully,look around you...you supposed to be thankful for everything that happen to you and they have first world problem that blame everything that's when they not strong enough to face that kind of situation....8 years ago,my family having a very big Fight as a result my mom re-married and same thing happen to my dad...i have 2 hot-headed brother,1 cool brother but hurts because of the past,and 2 sister has a very sarcastic mouth...but how??...It's Simple think postively....I LOVE THEM! why?? they adult as my family member they supposed to teach me about life...8 years tough years later...WE'RE BACK AS FAMILY AGAIN...why?? Strong...if you willing go trough the pain...you will get there..just promise me one thing only......DON'T SLEEP UNTIL YOU SUCCESS...